I’m expected to move on from being cheated on while you maintain a friendship, plan a trip, and confide with the person u cheated on me with. Oh, not to mention, u can’t promise me you’ll be faithful because, and I quote, “promising I won’t cheat would be like controlling traffic, it’s out of my hands”. Really? Do you hear yourself?
My horoscope scares me.
I normally don’t believe in that shit but it’s mad real today. It told me to clean out my house of the bad so I can surround myself with the love I deserve. They must have been spying on me and then composed that horoscope after what they’ve seen happen. It’s gonna hurt. For a long time. It’s gonna hurt my daughter to grow up without a father. It’s gonna hurt more than I know because your all I know. But it’s overdue. I can’t change the person I am. I shouldn’t. I always ask myself what can I do? But I’ve done all I can. More than I should have. But that’s the past. Now it’s the present. My future will be bright. Our future will be bright. We don’t need you. Well, ellenoir needs a father but you can’t give her that. You can’t put aside your wants to give her what she needs. Therefore, one day she will understand what is happening now. I genuinely hope she can make you as happy as you fantasize about. I really do. After all, I do love you very much, I’m just angry right now. Angry you will choose another over me. But I have to remember its not me, it’s you. I WILL find someone to love me the ways you never could. I WILL find someone to love my daughter the ways you never will. I WILL carry on. For Ellenoir. You dont deserve us. I used to be sad, now I’m angry. Angry another woman means more than your daughter. YOUR DAUGHTER! I will never understand that. And I don’t know how I’m gonna explain that to her one day. But I will have to. The show must go on.
My honesty will never be accepted by your selfishness
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Let us clarify… Your honesty….telling me that we should break up because you’ll be around somebody you cheated on me with and will do it again. You said you can’t control yourself because you will be drinking. You said you love her and I could never be the woman she is to you. My selfishness… Me crying and begging not to do this to me, our daughter. It’s days from her first birthday. Me asking you to just please keep it in your pants for our family an you saying you can’t. If I am selfish for wanting you to be here for your daughter and me and asking you to be faithful then I am guilty of being selfish. I listened to all the honesty. I listened to you tell me you love her. How she makes you feel. I’m sorry I couldn’t silently listen to you tell me you love another and that even birthing your blood an flesh can’t compare to her. I’m sorry I will never be as good as her in your eyes.
Im beginning to really hate my life.
I have no friends, nobody to talk to, shit ass people that work with me and a shitty home life. Thank goodness I have a beautiful daughter who loves me cause there isn’t anything else going for me right now. I hope she can be successful go to college and find a man who treats her like a queen. She deserves it.
